The world played solemn strings for only her,
When they did, I’d see eyes so full of dread
That I can’t help but let mine eyes tear-shed.
Looking back now to what I knew of her,
I know there were things I could –
Should have said.
When I knew her, when she was still alive,
There were times when she’d begin to sparkle.
At times she’d be granted a gift from god,
And turn the most wonderful shade of gold.
It’s when the strings began to play again,
She’d have to withdraw, too afraid to live.
The serenade of melancholia.
Her spirit chained, ordained to be the cursed,
Even so, she gladly paid the toll though.
For without pain, what meaning has happiness?
All she told me was that she must listen.
For if she did not, she would not be worth
That shade of gold, akin a deities light.
When joy enveloped her, she gave to all.
The golden Sun warms Earth with endless love,
As did she. But weep one does all alone.
For glee is contagious, but gloom is not.
I think of her, after she killed herself.
As I do, I remember the sad strings,
And wish to have heard them, to know of them.
Yet I am busy with another grief,
One that plays heartlessly on my heartstrings.
There won’t be any shade of gold for me,
Only this blue I suffer through with things,
I wish I’d done, and regret I did not.
The only woman I loved and adored,
Died seeking to end the endless sore stings,
For in her mind she was always abhorred.
I miss she who listened to solemn strings.